It’s You That I Want.

While some might find me beautiful, others may not even deem me to be worth a second look. Many know me as nice, whereas some have met a much ruder & unkind version of me. To some I am too forgiving, while others know me to hold a grudge. In ways I am complimented for some of my decisions, they could be considered distasteful to others. Where my mind isn’t sharp and intelligent there lay an area of dullness. I have moments where I am largely selfless, but unfortunately, very selfish in others. While these opinions sit on opposite sides of each other, I have heard each one independently throughout the years. Someone’s perception of me is typically a compilation of these opinions (if not more), where I win some and inevitably lose some. Whether they be accurate or false, they will be made regardless. In the same way where some people have the dream home, but not the people to fill it. Or the fastest car, but nowhere to go. Or the extravagant clothes, but for no one to show. There are of course prettier, nicer, wealthier, or whatever people out there that to someone else completely outweighs you. You can’t control that because the battle isn’t changing their opinion - It’s not letting it change your own. It’s unstable and frankly useless to act in a way in fear of someones thoughts, actions, or attention because somehow or somewhere you will lose. While I’ve lost people in my life, I’ve never lost myself. I am exactly the person I have to be in every eye it is perceived.

Now, it’s not my place to say whether the person you are is right or wrong, because those characteristics aren’t claimed. They are earned.

- With Love, Fiza Usman